Heart beating, Eyes shaking, palm sweating and mind racing. I just stood there with nothing else in my mind. I tried to know her name without it being obvious by asking all of my partymates names without luck. The day then came for the grand rally and we were waiting for our turn to go to our seats and she was all going on and on about how she is not going to be a good person for the job. Then suddenly I said “You don’t suck, think positive. Its just that you are nervous to be here.” , knowing that i barely even knew her. Well we ended up seating together and I suddenly got this weird feeling. But I shrugged it off and asked her name. Her name was Maria Kathryna Denaga, then all of a sudden I got that strange feeling again but I still shrugged it off.

A few days later I decided to write her a letter considering I can just leave it in her locker but I remembered I still dont know where is her locker. I was about to give up on it till I noticed something in their classroom. It was my lucky day, it was their locker positions. The next day I left the note in her locker just in time before their snack and I was lucky, I was almost caught in the act. About 10 mins later we moved to their room to transfer subjects but since we were about 20 mins early they were too. She went towards to where our class stayed, assuming she was looking for the person who left the note, I hid by a pillar. Just when I was about to run she went to a classmate of mine and said “Where you the one who left the note in my locker?”. I coudnt help but laugh with a few other classmates, oh and one thing only 3 other classmates of mine knew about the note and I was lucky he wasnt one of them, after that she walked out angry, or so i thought, without getting the answer she wanted and I felt a bit guilty both for my friend and her. On that very same day I was going to be picked up late so I was walking around the campus. I then walked by one of my classmates who was talking to one of her old classmates so I just went over since I didnt really have anyone to talk to. My classmate introduced me to her old classmate as the person who left the note. And with that a stroke of bad luck came with it, she walked by too. I was then introduced to her, without the note fact, and almost got away with it. But then my classmate told her that it was me who left the note. And I hurriedly stood and explained myself but I was too late, she ran……

Year 2010, month June, date -forgotten-,

Pondering back at my life, I cant help but wonder why I cant seem to find memory that fits the blank in my heart. I keep thinking If we were to be with someone forever, who would be my someone? Though I have met some pretty, smart and energetic girls I never seem to like any of them even that had a liking to me were mere trivial moments in my search for the one. There was even a time when I thought a certain girl in my grade 4 life was the one for me, eventually I just got captivated by her talents and looks for a while. Eventually it ended and I was again left to ponder.But that happened two years before.

Being enrolled in my new prestigious high school was a like a new lease on life for me. New school, new system, new teachers, new subjects but most especially new classmates to meet and greet. But I have to admit a family legacy was set up there. Setting that aside for my classmates to find out, I started to make a name for myself. I even tried out things that I once vowed not to try to be exact the student government. The time came for the searching for the candidates in the elections. I ran for a trivial position, the batch Peace Officer, so as to have a small enough role to be of help. We had trouble at first with our party but eventually we were able to fill up the candidates. And all of a sudden during a meeting of our party for our campaign plans my heart started to beat loud and fast, I even thought I could hear my heart more than my party mates words, as I saw her………

Hmmm…… I prefer a nice country side where I could go fish, hunt and climb